One Year of Betting on God
This day one year ago, I was having last-day calls and receiving thank you emails from my team, expressing appreciation for all the work done thus far and wishing me the best in my future endeavors (about which I had no idea). I had quit my job because I knew in my heart that it was what the Lord wanted me to do (this makes no sense to anyone who isn't a believer). For almost a year, I had struggled with the idea of leaving, and I had many discussions with God about why it didn't make sense to do so. I had valid points, and for a year, I was able to ignore those thoughts and feelings until I couldn't. I gave in and said, trembly, Lord, I'll do it. And the journey began…
When I said, "Lord, let's do this," I was genuinely telling myself that it wouldn't take long and that, since I had made the decision to obey, I would see the benefits of that obedience almost right away. Along with wanting to see the fruits of my obedience, I also had an image in my mind of what I wanted them to look like. I believe I already had a Medium article and a LinkedIn post about God's goodness and the advantages of obedience written in my head. My next move was already planned out in my head, and I couldn't wait to share it, discuss it, and get excited about it. I even told some people that occasionally God will ask you to leave something in good condition because of a future expectation. And while I was excited about what was to come, the truth was that I had no idea. I told my friends, family, and everyone else about my decision, and everyone was as supportive as ever, believing that something better was on the way. But what’s our definition of something better?
I believe that the battle I am facing today is my future strength. I am not running from it
A better job, a successfully built and profitable business, and possibly more were what I considered to be better one year ago. But after a year, I've come to the conclusion that a stronger faith in Jesus is better. This is not a compensation price but a deep truth after several months of fighting back. In this one year, my confidence is in God's knowledge. In this past year, I've come to realize that God already knows what I don't, and there is no one else I would have trusted with my life. In the last year, I've learned to let go of my understanding of what the past glory was and focus on what God can do. The hardest part of this journey has been maintaining daily faith and relying on God to guide, provide, and teach. I really want to know how everything will turn out, but only He knows that, and He only gives us hints occasionally. I've been able to pursue dreams and goals that bring me fulfillment in the last year, I've grown as a person, and I've laid the groundwork for the type of life I want to live. I wouldn't trade the crazy faith experiences I've had over the past year for anything in the world. I still don't know what's going to happen, but I have a strong backing—someone who is the same today, tomorrow, and forever. If He has been able to keep me together for this long, I can bank on that.
Here's to the future, and here's to believing.
